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  2. Ahh that sounds so lovely. I like the idea of teaching, but could not do it. I think it's a vocation. Go and enjoy your holiday!
  3. Thanks guys! For the first time since I began working I don’t look forward to my summer holiday. My life has basically been Mick Mac and work since covid, and now it’s just work. But I guess it will be good with a holiday, just have to figure out some stuff to do. I had the last lesson with my seniors today, and they are the best! They had bought me flowers, and made me a necklace that said my students are smarter than yours, and a bracelet with all their and mine initials and another bracelet that said everyone’s favorite. I love them so much! Being a teacher is absolutely amazing, just saying.
  4. I felt bad about how quickly I went from caring for two sick dogs (awake at 3am, awake at 6am, permanently on edge and worried about who was home to look after them when I was working, clearing vomit off the floor, cleaning the garden, organising medications, dealing with family who didn't pull their weight, nearly had a nervous breakdown from all of the above) to sleeping in and not missing all the shit. I felt so guilty for being grateful for not worrying. I promise you're not a terrible person. When someone's been ill, it's a relief for everyone when the burden of care is lifted. Enjoy your time! You might find it hits you at a random time. Grief is weird. It's not a straight line, it's a squiggle.
  5. I think it sounds normal to be confused by your emotions. He was a big part of your life and it must be hard trying to figure out how you feel without him. You're definitely allowed to have fun without feeling guilty and Mick Mac would've wanted you to I'm sure ❤️
  6. That is a difficult question... I were traveling with my students Monday-Thursday, by bus, and not further away than a couple hours, but still more change of scene than we’ve had lately, and it was just amazing. And part of me feel so guilty for enjoying it. Especially since I recognized that I was away from home for several days without worrying about MM for the first time ever. And it felt so good to not worry. But I feel so bad for feeling good. And I do miss him, and would gladly worry every second for the rest of my life if I could have him back, but I know I can’t, and I don’t miss worrying. But I miss him, and now and then stuff happens and I almost cry. But I haven’t really broken down yet, and some times I wonder if I’ve just moved on, and that makes me feel like a terrible person. At the same time I worry if I will have a big breakdown, possibly in a couple weeks when my holiday start, and I don’t know how I would eventually deal with that. I don’t know how I’m supposed to grieve, people ask if I’m okey, and I feel like I make them worry if I say no, but I’m a cold and bad person if I say yes, and then I end up giving long explanations like this. So I guess I’m kinda doing okey?
  7. Congrats! I know you can do it, and I’ll cross my fingers for you nailing those first days🤞
  8. Thank you. I don't have a great track record starting new jobs, but this is basically the same job for basically the same company using literally the same software, so I'm hoping I'll be able to hit the ground running.
  9. Ayyyy enjoy! I finished The Well of Ascension this morning. It's part of the Mistborn series; I really liked the first novel but this one had a bit of middle book syndrome. I reckon I'll give the next (final?) book a go, though.
  10. I'm so excited, I've accepted a new job which is similar to an old job I had which was my favourite job ever. Not only that but they want to promote me in 12 months which will involve relocating to Devon (by the sea) and having a company car 🤓 I really hope this works out 🤞
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  13. Oh my goodness I just melted a bit. Does this site still have emojis? 🥰 I am still on Lolita, but I took a lil break to read half of Maggie Stiefvater's bibliography plus her newest, Mister Impossible, which I think will haunt my bones until I am 80. Not sure how I feel about that. That's a lie, I love her work. Yes to the audiobook voice thing! I looked up voice actors/narrators for a potential audiobook for The Princess and the Dragon, funnily. Amazon/Audible has this bank of voice samples you can choose and filter through, like 'British Northern Irish accent,' 'flirtatious vocal style,' 'erotica genre.' Quite weird but a fun research experience.
  14. The Princess and the dragon and other stories about unlikely heroes by Francesca! Currently reading the paperback, and I’m in awe every time I ponder the fact that I kinda know the person who wrote the book I’m holding. I know I already read the book, but it wasn’t a physical book at that time. Also, audiobooks are so dependent on the person who is reading it. Some voices just don’t fit with the book, or they’re just annoying, and that destroys the experience! I always prefer reading myself, but audiobooks may work in certain situations.
  15. Hahaha that is Eurovision in a nutshell. Does the best singer get through? No? Does the most dramatic? ABSOLUTELY
  16. You can still watch this year, it’s on Saturday! The first semifinal was last night, and Norway actually got to the final, although I’m kinda embarrassed about who we sent this year. We had several songs that were better, but this guy were crying at a Norwegian talk show a couple days before the final...
  17. I haven't seen it at all! I am so bad at following TV. I did make a bingo/drinking game a few years ago that my friends and I used when we had a Eurovision party, but I've missed the last couple of years (the one before the pandemic? I don't even know). I'll have to catch it, it's bonkers.
  18. Thanks. It’s good to be kinda normal. Are anyone else watching Eurovision? I’m flabbergasted every year by how many weird performances there is. I just love it!
  19. It's really normal to feel normal for a bit, then hate yourself for feeling normal, and feel weird again. But yeah, you do realise who the great people are when you experience a bereavement. It's a good litmus test for who's in it for the long haul, friendship-wise.
  20. Gotta take what you can, a little is better than nothing. I’m an emotional wreck to be honest. I’m not saying I feel horrible all the time, but I do feel horrible, and then I’m with awesome people who make me laugh, and then I remember and wonder how on earth I can actually be laughing, then I’m thinking that I wish it was just all over so I can move on, and then I wish the day will never come... but all in all I’m doing okey given everything. I’m starting to realize that I actually have a bunch of great people in my life.
  21. Thank you! I am feeling a bit more human today. Not a lot more, but I'll take it. I hope you're doing okay, Sonia.
  22. Congratulations! Adult life is hard. That’s all I have to say about that.
  23. That's so interesting - I've never tried an audio book but am planning to with the Iliad because I've tried reading that and it just... didn't happen. Reading it turned out to be a good cure for insomnia. Nodded right off. I think having it narrated would help me keep track. It's all about what works for you and your brain, though. Some stories will work better in certain formats than others for different people. Ahh I hope you like TRC! I'm doing a reread at the moment - Lolita needed a little holiday - and it's like having a hug from a friend.
  24. Thank you! I am so tired ahaha. And also stressing about all the adult life and money stuff I'd put off when I was working on the final parts of the diploma. Does anyone want to buy some books and/or help me organise some cupboards?!
  25. I actually checked out the first book of The Raven Cycle at the same time because I remembered how much you loved them! Haven’t started it yet, but I will. I made myself read a couple chapters yesterday, so. Slowly. I actually have a bit of an issue with auditory processing so audiobooks and podcasts are even harder for me to follow. I used to love them, too. 😩
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